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brrgilbert
Messages: 282
Registered: December 2012
Location: Nampa, Idaho
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Just before my father passed away He gave me a promise and assurance that he would prevent the adversary from appearing to me. Thus far, with gratitude, I can state that he has kept his word. Because my mother committed suicide when I was 4 1/2 years old, (I was the first to find her,) and my father, (who was a medical doctor,) didn't remarry until about 10 years later, my two sisters and I were raised primarily by housekeepers. My father remarried an LDS woman who had three children, as well. It was at this time that my father, one sister, and I were taught and baptized members of the Church and quasi-learned what nurturing from a mother meant. I have realized that I lacked a great deal of nurturing which has caused me to be insecure and given me the wrong perception about what love is and what being a husband and father entails. Blessed be my dear wife, an elect lady, who has suffered with me while I have "grown up" - I have committed a great many mistakes - she, though, has unconditional love for me. From her, I have gained "wings." I feel sometimes that she is the one thing that I got right. I married "up."
The reason that I divulge this information is so that it can be made apparent why my father would make such a promise. He knew that I had had a very hard life when I was growing up. He always wanted to protect me . . . I guess this was because he was gone so much taking care of others. I tend to be very sensitive to things and probably care too much about what other people think. Regardless, I am blessed beyond measure. Some very choice souls have taken me under their wings . . . for some, I have been their biggest trial. I, too, have read Doug Mendenhall's book on Conquering Spiritual Evil and have requested Heavenly Father to place a perpetual sphere about me, our home and family that will be restored after every undesired "mortal" intrusion bringing the "negativity" in. It has taken me quite a while to learn what it means to love and how to nurture others. I am grateful for my life . . . but I wouldn't want to repeat it. I really don't want to be recycled. (Alma 37:11) I have become very empathetic and can't handle people being hurt. For this reason I couldn't become a doctor like my father. I care and I don't like to see people get hurt or hurting. I can testify that Love will always find a way. I have been a receiver and giver. I have learned how to love because people and God have shown me what it is and loved me first. It is a wonderful feeling to know what God thinks of me . . . sometimes I don't feel worthy to have so much revealed to me. I wonder sometimes if I reveal too much. Hopefully I do it in the correct forums???
"I must endure the presence of a few caterpillars if I wish to become acquainted with the butterflies."
The Little Prince by St. Exupery
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