Denryu,

In May of this year, I awoke to the Spirit telling me that I had been sealed up to eternal life, and my first reaction was doubt. I had to ask the Lord how this could be, then he explained it to me. He reminded me of the sacrifices I had made, and had expressed a willingness to make, and told me that I had qualified for it over and over again.

After that, I was filled with the Spirit in a way I had never before experienced. It was far more radiant and powerful than ever. This lasted, almost non-stop, for six days. I went to the temple, and it didn't stop there either.

As it turned out, the promise I received in May was actually a second witness. Because of my doubts about my own value, and because I didn't fully understand the doctrine of C&E, I denied myself this blessing when it was first promised, in 1976. I have had the loneliness that attends it since then, and I have had tremendous blessings as well, which is why I didn't notice a change after the second witness in May, I had been receiving some of the blessings of C&E for 36 years without knowing it.

I came to understand this on August 27th. A revelation burst upon my mind and I understood the whole thing, from the day the promise was first given until then. I was filled with joy unspeakable. I ran downstairs and showed my wife the tears of joy I had (a first for me). I was jumping up and down I was so happy. She said I was like Scrooge (George C. Scott version) on Christmas morning, and I was. My happiness was complete, my joy was full to overflowing AND I KNEW, NOTHING DOUBTING!!!!