Denryu,

In May of this year, I awoke to the Spirit telling me that I had been sealed up to eternal life, and my first reaction was doubt. I had to ask the Lord how this could be, then he explained it to me. He reminded me of the sacrifices I had made, and had expressed a willingness to make, and told me that I had qualified for it over and over again.

After that, I was filled with the Spirit in a way I had never before experienced. It was far more radiant and powerful than ever. This lasted, almost non-stop, for six days. I went to the temple, and it didn't stop there either.

As it turned out, the promise I received in May was actually a second witness. Because of my doubts about my own value, and because I didn't fully understand the doctrine of C&E, I denied myself this blessing when it was first promised, in 1976. I have had the loneliness that attends it since then, and I have had tremendous blessings as well, which is why I didn't notice a change after the second witness in May, I had been receiving some of the blessings of C&E for 36 years without knowing it.

I came to understand this on August 27th. A revelation burst upon my mind and I understood the whole thing, from the day the promise was first given until then. I was filled with joy unspeakable. I ran downstairs and showed my wife the tears of joy I had (a first for me). I was jumping up and down I was so happy. She said I was like Scrooge (George C. Scott version) on Christmas morning, and I was. My happiness was complete, my joy was full to overflowing AND I KNEW, NOTHING DOUBTING!!!!

6 Now, this was what Ammon desired, for he knew that king Lamoni was under the power of God; he knew that the dark veil of unbelief was being cast away from his mind, and the light which did light up his mind, which was the light of the glory of God, which was a marvelous light of his goodness--yea, this light had infused such joy into his soul, the cloud of darkness having been dispelled, and that the light of everlasting life was lit up in his soul, yea, he knew that this had overcome his natural frame, and he was carried away in God--